Doctor’s visit today: Everything looking right on track. Baby is 17.8mm long - almost 1 inch! AMAZING! And the heartbeat was 166bpm, which they said was good. It’s doubled its size in a week. So, it’s becoming a bigger blob on the screen now. But it’s very cool to see the little heartbeat fluttering away. Once it actually looks like something, we’ll add a picture to the blog.
Me: Feeling almost normal this week. Not as sick as I felt a week or so ago, although if I go too long without something to eat, I’ll feel sick. But it’s not as exactly-every-two-hours anymore. I feel like I can start eating healthier again. (When I was feeling sick, the ONLY thing that would help me feel better was a very high-carb snack/small meal. Mac&Cheese was my friend. ) This week I have been SO exhausted. Could sleep almost all the time. Still a little pain, but they tell me it’s normal.

Every week when we go in, I just have this fear that THIS week will be THE week they tell me there isn’t a heartbeat anymore, that the baby’s dead and there’s nothing they can do. I’m ok for the first hour or so after the appointment, and then I start to worry again. Is everything ok? Is the tea I had this morning going to cause a problem because it had chicory in it and I didn’t know it? How will I survive another loss? And then the week passes, I get to see the little thing on the screen again and hear the heartbeat and it just makes my heart swell. Jason spends most of the week trying to convince me that everything is ok and will be ok. I just wish I could find the strength to convince myself.

I am so fed up with our apartment office! EVERY SINGLE TIME we have a package delivered by UPS, it sits there. If we don’t happen to get the little UPS sticker that says it was left in the office, we NEVER find out that something was delivered for us. AND they have a policy if you don’t pick up something within 3 weeks, they SEND IT BACK to the shipper! That is an absolutely RIDICULOUS policy to have for an office that doesn’t notify its tenants when they have a package IN THE FIRST PLACE!

AAH!

Getting up this morning at 5:30, to leave the house at 6:00 so we could be at the doctor’s at 7:00 was not a pleasant experience with streets that were barely plowed, snow still falling and just general BAD conditions.

Then, I come home, get ready and turn around at 8:30 to go to work - and I start at 10:30!  I got there plenty early, but how was I to know?  Last night it took me 2 hours to get home.

So, the question comes, why can’t adults have Snow Days built into their benefit package? Not Vacation/Sick Days, but Snow Days.  I would like to be able to watch TV and see: …..Melissa’s Business: CLOSED….  That would be so nice.  Then I don’t have to worry about digging out my car, cleaning it off, navigating the INSANE STREETS.

Just a thought to those Powers That Be that create benefit plans for people in these snow-doused places.